This is what I want to be.
I’ve been stressing lately. And not about anything in particular, or particularly stressful. It’s just been my ego, going out of control.
In order to reign it in I have devised a sort of exercise. Whenever I get excited or emotional in a way I can see is unhelpful or unhealthy I picture myself as a smooth stone in the bottom of a river bed. It’s quite relaxing and has helped me very much in the last 24 hours. I plan to continue doing it tomorrow.
The reason I picture myself as a smooth stone in the bottom of a river bed is because that’s what I wish I was. Metaphorically that’s what I want to be. I wonder, “maybe if I sit there long enough the hard iron black stone carapace will be eroded away and a turquoise or purple or even magenta hue will be revealed.”
Either way I want the world to rush about me and hone me, but not into a point, into an egg shape.
Tags: ego trip, river bed, smooth stone, stressing out
